other side

from your tale
I saw you sitting there; candles burning
belly laughing. Telling stories

I see this tale
but i could not see this side

i am reluctant

plugging


it all in again is done with reluctance




why? I may ask myself
it all means well and its beautiful


but consternation still tugs a little at my sleeve


i am a little reluctant

Lanvin is Beautiful

"Sun glasses doesn't mean your invisible."

"I understand."

She twirled a fry in some mustard. "And its almost like they are just falling forward down the street and instead of walking."

"The humanity."

"What were you saying earlier?"

"Nothing. I was actually just longing for a point to your earlier story."

"Your so lovable. Do you pine for me as well?"

"Yes. But it is only because you are very very attractive."

"Encore un fois?"

"Of course."

"It bothers you doesn't it."

"Yes it does. It constantly puts me in front of you. It's obviously distracting."

"You know I'm joking."

"I'm not, this is a serious issue. A man can lose 10 years or more of his life being distracted by you. Matter of fact I was suppose to meet my mother today but quickly canceled it after you called. She could have been getting back the results from her Oncologist "

"I am responsible for you."

"I guess you are."

"You are completely distracted by me. I am your false idol, and I have to help you by denying your ass everything you want--which you have a problem telling me anyway, and just give you what you need."

"I'm serious."

"I know you are."

the Cleaner



anything you are attached to-


gripping onto this idea.


riding on space and times merry-go-round


lose your grip


you can walk right out the fucking front door

You see the flesh or recognize the spirit. There is no compromise between the two. If one is real the other must be false, for what is real denies its opposite. There is no choice in vision but this one.

























--A Course In Miracles

The Offering

swollen hands under your open shirt

hands pressing firmly into your softness
the pursuer's blood warm


you do more with a craned neck






opening it to their lips






placid face and turned away



drawing the tide over you










but your mind is closed







and


disinterests snares the pursuers.

is it just me? What am i seeing?




you've pulled this before





many times

that mind

lost and away


your body again off its leash and uprotected


its landscape open and calling






so vulnerable




so vulnerable



is it just me?

Anthony

"There is this guy that walks around the business circle with bats, you seen him?"

"Bats?"

"Bats."

"Pet bats? Flying bats?"

"No baseball bats, a bag full of them."

"College aluminum or wood bats?"

"I don't know."

"Is he homeless? Is he wielding them?"

"I don't know." He says stirring his coffee with his thumb. "I mean, he is not homeless he has a suit on and he looks like a motherfuckin' professional."

"They have stir straws."

"Huh?"

"Hey whats up with this minutia anyway, are they your bats, and he is just taunting you?"

"Man its just strange, I see this dude everywhere. Don't you think this shit is strange?"

"I may need just a little more time, and a little more of your story to care."

"Its just that I see him everywhere. In the Walgreen's at bustops..."

"Do you think it means something? Is it a calling? Are you suppose to be doing something with bats in your life?"

"I don't know. What do you think?"

"I think he plays in the park after work like a ton of other 'circle' people. they have alot of diamonds over there. You've seen them?"

"Yea."

"Maybe its not even the same guy."

"Yea that could be it."

William William

"There will be some casualties."

"Ha."

"No seriously..."

"It is just going to be mental abuse."

"No." He shook his head. "My life will be loaded with those that can get the best from both of us."

"Of you and them?"

"Yea."

"As if you are in charge of all this shit."

"I am."

"Of what happens to you?"

"Yea."

"Of course."

"Listen, I fucked up every relationship I ever had, especially when it came to women."

"What part of that is just your fuckability to?"

"Listen, From the first time at 13 that I realized that girls wasn't just something you verbally decimate and then somehow with the sponsorship of a dream, realize gangly and pockmarks were cute. I could have been looking for a different relationship with them."

"Gangly?"

"Yea."

"Its not that serious."

"That's my point, it is. Maybe at 13 I shouldn't look at it that way, but once I reach my twenties a flag has to go up if I continued to reach the same results with someone I get involved with."

"That."

"That its me."

"Of course."

"Of course. I am wasting this woman's reason for showing up. Regardless of how nice my mother thinks she is, or my Grandmother's belief that her presence had raised my college grade point average I am counting down the hours when I am going to be fucking her.

"Man, that serves as a Cad quality. I never realize that about you."

"Cad?"

"Yea."

"Yea well...Just to get my point across I will stay with the idea that it is just me. Wait till you realize that it can be masked in so many other things as well."

"Of course."

"My success depends on what I get from the people that come into my life. Regardless if its fucked up or not I just got to get my head just out of the..."

"Fuckability possibility."

"Dig. What are you drinkin'?"

Your entire life journey ultimately consists of the step you are taking at this moment.There is always only this one step, and so you give it your fullest attention. This doesn’t mean you don’tknow where you’re going, it just means this step is primary, destination secondary.













Eckhart Tolle “A New Earth, Your InnerPurpose"

Diana Henn Slowie

"So your chewing a large wad of gum and carrying a Louis Vuitton bag."

"What are you saying?"

"I don't know what I'm saying."

"Well I'm not fuckin' strollin' down Champs Elysee's."

"Of course."

"Can I just get a water with lemon? I'm not ready to order yet." She said as a waitress quickly nodded and headed away. "Why do you like eating here? This food is at the beginning stages of sub par."

"I bring all my lovers here. There is no exception for you."

"I figure that term should be used lightly with us."

"Are you wearing Wellies?"

"The day called for rain." Her eyes scanned the room. "Don't give me ' your I hate umbrellas soliloquy'."

"Knee high Orange rubber boots for a woman who everyday walks 13 feet from her office, before getting into a cab."

"Brings out the seams in my skirt."

"I still love you."

"I know you do."

"We had our moments."