"The most difficult challenge we can possibly face is the act of surrender,

the unconditional acceptance of What Is. This is releasing control. This is the ultimate humility born from the truthful acknowledgment of not-knowing.

The truth reveals itself when we surrender."

Anthony wants to do that thing.

"I want to do that thing."

"Huh?"

"Perception is a son of a bitch."

"Why?"

"It controls my decision making."

"I thought we were talking about something else."

"I can't do anything that I am genuinely desiring without first thinking and worrying about how others are going to perceive it."

"You can fuck what others think."

"Why do people say that?"

"Say what?"

"Say things like 'just ignore people or 'Who cares what other people think' or 'I know someone who doesn't care what people think.' Turns out that guy just don't care what you think, but he cares about the ramblings of someone in his life ."

"Maybe."

"Perception is a crazy. It has to be extracted. The whole perception thing has to be cut out. We have to attack it directly. The 'Who cares what people think.' line is not going to work. We have to head right to causality."

"What are you going to do."

"You say that as if I am going to head over to City Hall."

"Well? You brought all of this up, like you were ready to light your torch."

"Yeah, maybe."

"OK."

"I'm just going to do the desire."

"What?"

"I'm just going to do the thing. I'm just going to do what I desire before perception fully takes hold in my mind and influences that decision."

"That sounds easy."

"It's not. It will ignite. You will see it. But you can't get involved in that mob. You have to stay back, stay away from it. You got to go do your thing. You have to protect that notion, that desire. You have to make sure you do that thing before the mob invites you over."

"Ok."

"Yeah it's that simple.

William does not want to change what's happening.

"What is the difference between something happening to you and you preventing something from happening?"

"Will, please not today."

"What?"

"Just a nice quiet meal, please."

"It's just a question."

"I don't know."

"What?"

"I can't answer that."

"I don't know either."

"What?"

"I mean I think that if you stop a so called bad thing from happening to you or something happens to you surprisingly, the thing that is in common with both of them is that you are going to be still using the same tools to work either situation. You are still the same person in both situation."

"I said please just let me eat."

"I think the point is if you fear something bad happening to you, that is where you are making the mistake. You are putting too much power on it, and that is going to change the way it affects you."

"But it depends on the degree of fucked up."

"No, it depends on the power you give it, the tools you have to deal with both situations remains the constant. The power you give away is the only thing that changes a problem you are avoiding or facing. You never personally--who you really are, never change."

"It's like you are saying you don't change anything, even if your situation has gotten worse."

"Right."

"What? Even if you mangled in a car accident?"

"There may be different actions you take physically but mentally it has to be seen the same and then the problem--no matter the severity, has the same peaceful effect as the problem you were good enough to avoid."

"I wish I could have avoided this conversation."

"I feel better."

William's guru is disheveled.

"Ok you have my attention."

"How's that?"

"You."

"Me?"

"I figure I start giving in to everything around me."

"It's early."

"What the hell is going on?"

"Are you talking to me?"

"I am just saying uncle. I don't know what's going on anymore so I figure I should just say uncle and someone comes running in and explain how my life was one big joke."

"You believe that?"

"Well, I don't believe that will happen, no, but I do believe that what's in front of me from here on out is some sort of clue that will lead to all of my answers and explain to me why these continents of fucked up'edness exist."

"Ok."

"So I have to let you do what you want. I have to allow these experiences. I have to give you my full attention. Well if I'm attracted to it anyway. This right fuckin' here is where the action is; this is where the answers are. Where else am I going to go? Hiding out by running from what's in front of me? I stop the merry go round by checking in. Showing up right here.These experiences are not bypasses onto a highway that is more interesting, these are the destinations. You are the purpose--for now anyway. This right here is the purpose of "this" existence."

"My beleaguered ass is the key to your existence. I knew I was your God."

"Yeah. You're not someone that I just sit in a rundown cafe and slowly year after year become the victim of this chili cheese dog with extra onions. This is the moment. You're the guru."

"In a grease stained shirt."

"In loafers with tassels."

"I like that they slide on."

"Where am I trying to get to? Why am I overlooking this? I know why. It is so easy to do. The horizon that wants me to forget what's in front of it, doesn't exist and is pretending to call my attention.

"Instead a slack jawed guy in a grease stained shirt is whistling you over to fill you full of wisdom before he gets you to pay his tab."

"You have my attention."

William just lets it happen.

"Ok."

"Yes. I'm starting to see that I am ok."

"From what?"

"Huh?"

"From what?"

"I don't know. "

"What are you talking about?"

"I just feel like I'm going to always be ok."

"Ok your going to always be ok."

"When something bad is happening. I decided to just wait it out."

"What?"

"I just don't do anything reactive. I just like to stand still; do what comes clear, you know?

"You mean don't do anything? Let something appear. Like let it happen?"

"Let it happen, is a good way of describing it."

"That doesn't make any sense."

"There is something in that situation for me to do, but you usually can't hear it because you are reacting."

"If you are on fire you have at least drop and roll."

"Of course, but there are situations that doesn't need that immediate response, matter of fact a immediate response becomes the problem. Most of the things that are happening to us doesn't need a response. We should let it happen. That is the only place where we haven't looked for the answer to the problem."

"Crazy."

"Yeah, crazy. I'm not distracted anymore by work, relationships, words...I'm starting to just see myself. I'm gaining a focus--finally."

"So you're ok?"

"Even when I'm not."