"My confidence, helps the other people accept my life."

"I just getting ready to say that."

"Seriously."

"I know."

"Any wearyness. Any doubts, under confidence. In my choices, will bring people that I go to for advice attacks."

Nicholas still gets to be an asshole.

"I get to continue being a asshole."

"You do?"

"Yes."

"OK."

"It's just my actions have change. I swapped everything out, but I have kept my personality. I get to still be gruff. I can still be cold and quiet."

"OK."

"It's just my actions are now reversed. They are habit forming just like when they were assholian.  I am compassionate and loving. These are my only actions. Everything else I have to keep barricaded in my head until I can forgive that shit. I can keep that to myself.

"Being an asshole."

"Yes. I can only be a little agressive when someone tries to strong arm the truth from someone else who is willing to digest it. It is not personal. Even though my mind is racing to attack them with a large piece of wood. My actions are to protect truth and in the end. I still get to be myself."

"Interesting."

"Is it?"

"Yes."

"I get to stay familiar with a whole new system in place."

"I am thankful for that."

"Are you?"

"Yes."

William lets it catch him.

"I had to finally let myself be poor."

"I think that was more of a fact."

"No, listen. I wasn't. I work. I have a car. I got a house. I got expensive computers."

"Debt."

"Yes. You understand. I had to be caught. I had to be caught by what was happening to me. You understand?"

"No I don't."

"My debt and poorness was chasing my ass. It was trying to envelop me, you know? It needed to catch me."

"What are you talking about?

"I have to let what is desperately trying to happen, happen."

"You being poor was trying to happen."

"It was trying to happen, yes. I was avoiding it. I was avoiding it with more credit cards, more extensions, more fake living. This countries system easily allows this but I don't want to talk about that shit anymore. It doesn't want this realization to catch you. It needs you to live extended for whatever reason."

"OK."

"But by stopping, and letting yourself get caught by what you are trying to stay so desperately ahead of you begin to find the reasons for all of this.You understand?"

"No."

"If you let what is trying to desperately happen to you. I mean you can't sleep on it anyway, right? Your constantly running to stay just ahead."

"I get it."

"Let it happen."