"I have to look for the truth in things. I have to look for the truth in things and work not to give a fuck about what happens after that. You understand?"

"Huh?"

"All of my anxiety comes when I sway off away from the truth of a situation. When I discover the truth in an experience I'm having and I get fucking entertained by a cauldron of voices."

"That sounds crazy."

"It is."

You're feeling bad because of what?

"Well I don't know."

"What?"

"What?"

"I didn't say anything."

"You know I think sex is either connection or degradation, anything else is a take it or leave it indifference."

"Can I please get my coffee first?"

"There is an idea, you know? This person allows you to continuously allows you to see something you like about yourself. You dig it. You are sexually attracted to them because of this continuing happy idea. You want to take their clothes off. Then there is the idea of control.."

"Does this have anything to do with me?"

"You want to dominate degrade this persons confidence. You have a continuing idea that sex is the way to do it. You are seeing success in it. The person meets up with you so that this can happen, but maybe not for the reasons you think."

"What?"

"They may show up because their whole life they felt like shit, most of the time, and you just help that feeling along with every time you push their head into the pillow."

"Can we leave specifics out of it."

"Both of these engines work."

"What about indifference?"

"You tell me."