"I know what it was. "

"Should I ask?"


"I don't know. But I'm going to tell you anyway. I have to. She hasn't committed to this new relationship, and I am stuck interacting with our first generation."

"What does that mean?"

 It's just that sex was the only avenue to closeness she would allow. Well not really allow consciously."

"She's more creative and intelligent than that?"

"She is but chooses not to be." 


"What about the grueling exercise? The competitiveness? She has allowed many to share in this area with her." 

"It was just as carnal, and less connective. Everyone is feeding from the same trough."


"I can't see that. You make it seem like they are all dragging from the cigarette."

"I see it because I wanted what she could only offer. After many years of knowing her. I realize that to be close to her I could only see one thing."

"Because you wanted to see it."

"No."

"I disagree...."

"It just appears like the only way to find the purpose of evolved relationship, even though she would never commit to this new relationship until she committed to herself."

"Relationships are about solving things. If it ends to soon because we got one idea wrong about it, it could fuck some things up."

"Here we go."

"You don't believe me?"

"I don't understand you."

"I can't solve none of my inner crimes."

"What?"

"That is what it is all about."

"They have to wait on you?"

"I guess."

Hey

 Sarah

While I can't beat the latest headlines of hysteria--which I spend some effort avoiding, mine would just read:

MARTIN IS AWESOME.

By Ms. Liver Lilly

Martin, again surprises us with his incredible adaptability with movable type, and he continues to drive wedges into the notion that he could ever be a heel. Ah.... how he will always find ways to delight those ...

of course I have my own personal struggles but yet I don't dial into as serious as I once did. I hope the abroad hasn't hammered you into a person that say's things like "I need to find a place to vacation this year....or those Americans and their warmongering ways I am so glad I have drained my blood of them." In any event I hope you are well.

What is your biggest fear in this predicament?
solve the biggest fear in this predicament

I can have a self or I can have consistent behavior. I cannot have both.

i need to hitchhike from here

 

What do you need comfort from?