What I like is she is steady. She is still holding her place in line, while I am out of sorts; trying to see what's going on.

The Miraculous no

Don't make decisions

"I just think we have to do the thing that we absolutely want to do. There is something that you absolutely want to do. Whatever that is will work; will happen. It will happen because finally you are using the initiative of the right mind. It will be you 5th original choice in the last 15 years all the other ones were made by someone else or your feeling of lack."

"It is an incredible amount of trusting. Somebody on the other side of a busy lane of traffic waving you over. It's like a 60 lane highway."

"I still hate this place."

"That's what I'm talking about."

"I'm talking about this diner."

"Right. I had to fire myself first. I had to be miserable first, tired, entertain outcomes that were less than smart--well horrendous, eventually. I just had stop take an assessment, abate the distractions. "

"I'm not sure this is pastrami."

"You understand?"

"Maybe."

"I had to notice."

i wait

empty

i wait.

 many moments;excruciating, grating and suicidal. the kind that rips and punctures

moments alone in density.

ah

but now i wait

empty

empty of my own pain;handing it off

i see those coming and going and i wait.