The next time you're feeling stress or discomfort, ask yourself whose business you're in mentally, and you may burst out laughing! That question can bring you back to yourself. And you may come to see that you've never really been present, that you've been mentally living in other people's business all of your life. Just to notice that you're in someone else's business can bring you back to your own wonderful self.

And if you practice it for a while, you may come to see that you don't have any business either and that your life runs perfectly well on its own.
















-Byron Katie
Loving What Is

Were the power is

i will do all of the bending






hold onto nothing




i am not afraid to see where it leads.

sit and think.

It is ridiculous to think




I guess to even think.



But i can just sit here


and discuss it.

Sit in prophecy and beef about it.


I stand


. Get up and take the wheel trying to steer. Steer based circumspect--on a hunch. Fear for what i think will save me.


this is an idea attached to nothing.





it will happen exactly the fuckin way it is suppose to.


And it is always perfect for me.






Only if I think--think the crazy shit but sit.

Lanvin does not want to swim

"It is like being in a house that is in a city that is submerging slowly in water. Do you know what I mean?"

"Huh?"

"Slow submersion."

"How many years?"

"I don't know, anywhere from a few seconds to seventy years; the more aware you are the quicker you realize it."

"Submerging to where?

"To a life where when you turn around all your wires are piled high and connected to someone else."

"A needle in a stack of needles."

"I figure it is no ones fault. I figure the confines of the relationship is what jams you up. It has this claustrophobic effect that then unleashes all of kinds of debauchery on your senses."

"Do you talk to your mother with that mouth?"

"Do you understand what I'm saying?"

"Maybe."

"I'm just saying that many relationships have the ability to corral you into this state. A hypnosis. A place where you find you can't do anything but destroy yourself, and it is very slow process to the unaware."

"OK."

"What?"


"Why are you saying OK?"


"I don't know I'm under hypnosis."

"What I'm trying to say is it is not the fault of the two people interacting. It is the fault of the model that they were given. The mainframe, right? This model has me as a liar, deceitful ..."

"Sexy."

"No."

"I'm just saying."

"Of course."


"But do you understand what I'm saying?"

"What?"

"We have to rewrite with the person a new relationship that is going to allow us to be honest with ourselves; focus on our direction. On top of all of this we have to realize that every relationship that comes to us has the ability to be completely different from one another which will destroy the definition that was past down to us in so many ways. We will make up a new definition on a case to case bases."

"I understand."

"Do you really?"

"Yeah. I'm mean no. You believe relationships of any kind puts you in a trick box? If I steal. If I sleep with someone else during my marriage it is because the relationship has made me do this? 'Honey I'm sorry, this relationship put me on the nearest bus to Slowie's house for a fuck session."

"Some of that is because you are personally fraudulent and Slowie is highly suspect, but yes there is truth there."

"This is now something that I can use in my defense. Thank You."

"If you get married and use a blueprint based on what you see on TV you are automatically going to go with that version. Then you will have the additive of maybe what your parents and friends present to you. You're going to feel safe there, and then you are going to be plugged into the wires of their guilt and the waters of fear will slowly rise."

"I'm an idiot."

"I didn't say that."

"I can swim. I'm set."

"You are an idiot."

"Don't look at me like that."

Anthony's execution.

"Have you ever tried to eat something in the car that requires you to almost take off all of your clothes?"



"Not recently."



"Just that idea makes you believe that the food is bad, right?"



"Yeah. I wouldn't need any deliberation on that."



"Well it was just my shirt."



"OK."



"You think you're better than me?"



"Yes I do."



"OK."

"What was it? A Coney Island?"

"Nothing that complex, it was just some Crazy Bread from Little Ceasers."

"That's it?"

"The bread is loaded with false butters and oils and salts and chemicals, plus I had a baby pan pan."

"You ate this in the car?"

"As if I was being executed in thirty minutes."

"How does that work? Your eating Crazy Bread and four slices of square pizza in the car while driving?

"Square pizzas are not sliced. Slice is a noun and generally means wedge shape. They just go right across with this...."

"What is wrong with you?"

"I was hungry and I wanted to take a risk. What I did was lean my face over the passenger seat as I took a bite into the pizza. I kept my eyes on the road. I then placed it back into the box and grabbed a crazy bread and then waited till I reached a stop light where I executed most of my consumption."

"Any witnesses?"

"To this last meal? This pre execution?"

"No....well my small and large intestines. They are once again victims."

"Yes. I agree."

"Yes."

"You are the executioner."

"Yeah. Maybe."

My evidence

All of my true thoughts
should be presented as evidence

these cases
like insanity versus self
or fear vs i
the i cannot help it
I'm rude about it. I just need to presented it all
you can decide the rest.
it is the best defense

it guarantees my freedom

Lanvin does not give to charity

"Well I smile and say no thank you."

"I tell them I'm broke or like Flinch I say, this world is an illusion, you or I don't exist."

"That is a loose interpretation of Hindu philosophy."

"OK. Whatever."

"You and your friends."

"Right. I love you the most."

"OK." She said batting her eyes. "This is what I believe."



"What?"



"I don't want to save the children, or the whales or fight with Greenpeace. I don't want to move too far off my own shore." She fixed her eyes. "I want to do my work. I want to figure out what's going on with me and why I have these set of circumstances, these friends, these family members and experiences--- first. Knowing this sets my direction."



"And you tell me you know."



"I know. I know they are here to patch me up, to make me better than ordinary, even if we both don't know it."



"What gives?"



"What?"

"I mean I don't think you are arrogant, plus I'm too drunk on your beauty and live in a dream world to our sexual possibilities to make a diversified decision. But you won't catch me saying I don't want to help the homeless or whatever, even though I don't begin to help them or whatever."

"I won't stand up and say it, I just don't feel bad not doing it."

"Heathen."

"For example if my experience needed me to help homeless people, because my own growth was tied into that experience, than yes of course. But my biggest problem is people stretching themselves or thinning themselves out like water for causes that have nothing to do with their own growth but more to do with the sins they feel they have and need to be healed so that they can get an A on the spiritual examination."

"I'm an idiot, but that seems like you are healing by giving, even if you haven't experience the same thing. People are still benefiting."

"If you are helping kids find water in Africa just to avoid the problems of your own family then you got a problem. You become afraid of staying home with yourself. You begin to use these off shore ideas just to distract. My whole thing is heal yourself first; these people and experience that are right here at home that are challenging. Forgiving them, than healing and finally opening up yourself so that these people can do the same thing in their lives. This is what's important. Your self is always the first Charity to give to."

"Do you at least get a T-Shirt?"