"The debarkation line has moved."
"Huh?"
"Any friends I have acquired from grade school up until yesterday have lost their potency."
"That would include me."
"Right."
"OK."
"I want to know what it is like to want to see you, or even what it is like to want to talk to you."
"What?"
"These relationships I had previous to today were relationships where I had no choice but to be involved. I didn't pick anyone of my own volition."
"Including me?"
"Including you."
"I think I'm cut now. I thought we choose our friends?"
"They are chosen for us."
"Ok."
"I realize that all of my relationships are made up;and they have unusable ingredients. Especially the people I considered close. Especially those. Because my need is greater with them, and by removing it I find that I am not as misplaced as I thought. I'm actually whole. Removing my investment, removing my need to search for pain, or comfort from pain, I have taken away 99% of my desire to participate in a friendship and instead observe what it is there for."
"Having breakfast here with me must be painful."
"Not till I've eaten the eggs."
"OK."
"I just wanted to know what it is like to really want to see you."

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