"I trust joy."
"Ok."
"While most people just like staying on the ground."
"Should I even ask?"
"God, it is so much easier. Just afraid of getting up in the air."
"What do you mean?"
"We like being racked. We like being really really close to suffering so we don't have far to go as we roll out the appointment book of our day. No need to fall in shit when we are in it. Joy is what we are really so uncomfortable with. It is where anxiety gets all over our ass. We are paranoid. A luxury of the spirit makes us increasingly nervous."
"Life is suffering I heard somewhere."
"Life is purging. It is cleansing"
"I need to take a bath."
"Staying in the air is tough. Staying there, in things that are going very right and not feeling guilty is tough"
"What?"
"I know, right? But jubilance is the enemy--you see. It is what can keep you up at night. It is unknown and unpredictable. Joy wrecks us, because we feel ill prepared and undeserving, but the craziest thing is, there are many more moments of it than suffering. The only reason there appears to be more pain is because of our continued resistance to joyful moments."
"So you say I like the ground"
"You like the ground. You hug it. I hug it at times. We don't have too far to fall, things could be worse, but we are always close to it"
"Maybe so"
"Peace and joy is much more common though."
"Ha."
"It is."
"Ok."
"You don't believe me?"
"I just like that you believe it."
"I just trust Joy."

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