"I know what it was. "

"Should I ask?"


"I don't know. But I'm going to tell you anyway. I have to. She hasn't committed to this new relationship, and I am stuck interacting with our first generation."

"What does that mean?"

 It's just that sex was the only avenue to closeness she would allow. Well not really allow consciously."

"She's more creative and intelligent than that?"

"She is but chooses not to be." 


"What about the grueling exercise? The competitiveness? She has allowed many to share in this area with her." 

"It was just as carnal, and less connective. Everyone is feeding from the same trough."


"I can't see that. You make it seem like they are all dragging from the cigarette."

"I see it because I wanted what she could only offer. After many years of knowing her. I realize that to be close to her I could only see one thing."

"Because you wanted to see it."

"No."

"I disagree...."

"It just appears like the only way to find the purpose of evolved relationship, even though she would never commit to this new relationship until she committed to herself."