" *: Nicholas doesn't like your asshole behavior but he will still take you to the airport.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Nicholas doesn't like your asshole behavior but he will still take you to the airport.























"My distractions are moving over to where I can see them. It is almost like they have become easily identified in a emptying out party. They stand there completley under dressed and huddled. I see them."

"What kind of party is this?"

"Things are starting to collapse around me. I haven't lived up to my obligations anymore."

"What are you talking about?"

"I don't know."

"Exactly."

"Well. I feel I finally let it go."

"What? He says with trepidation."

"Well maybe not all of it. I stop my support. I stop my support of what my friends wanted to believe about themselves. I stop my support for what my family wanted to believe about themselves."

"What?"

"I let them continue though. That's what it is..."

"What is?"

"My point. I stopped the support and realize my life got immeasurably quiet as I stopped, but I let them continue if they choose."

"Choose what?"

"If they want to abuse themselves I think it's ok."

"So you are telling me that you stop supporting people."

"There are two people in the world: those who think they need help and those who think they can give it."

"What?"

"There are logistical behaviors. I can help them logistically if they need a ride from the airport. Help them move. Pay for their dinner etc. Logistics, yes."

"I hope the latter is something we can discuss after this meal."

"I can do those things. I can do logistics. I can carry your drunk ass up a flight of stairs if you need me. That isn't the issue. I can be a reference for a job, but where it has changed.....it has changed where the disquieted is no longer accepted. I can no longer be a party to your self abuse, or aid you in self bludgeoning, after I have helped you up the stairs or into your new job. I cannot support you there. It doesn't serve me anymore to sit on the phone and listen to you exercise the banality of your life that you are decades away from changing. Matter of fact you would shoot me if I instituted practical application on the matter."

"I hope this is just a self realization and you don't mean me."

"Of course."

"Ok."

"I'm just not as distracted anymore. I can see all of the players in my own distraction. My own life has come in very clear after I stopped doing one of the two and now I have no tolerance with yours."

"Ok. How can you help me then."

"Well there is a third thing I can do. My support can be a friend who is distraction free that can be a mirror to your ass-holy behavior. That is the only beneficial support you will ever need. Someone who allows for accountability. I have cleared myself or I am aware of my hindrances and moved them back so I can be present for your growth."

"How else can you help me."

"I can carry your drunk ass up the stairs."

















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