William loves the C

"Ok listen to me."

"OK.

"This entire year has been a grade C for me."

"What?"

"A C, marginal, right in the middle. Average...."

"OK."

"Do you know what that really means?"

"Yeah, sounds like a fucked up year."

"No. It is not at the the two poles. It is not a success, or a failure or an A or an F."

"I know what that means."

"Do you understand why someone desires one of these poles, instead of the middle? The C?"

"You don't expect me to believe that someone desires failure. I can understand success..."

"No, listen, because first you don't have to be conscious. You can let one of these experiences own you. Distract you. What I've figured out is, the C, the one considered average, or most uneventful is the most eventful. The middle is where you are doing all of the work. It is where you become alive. It is where you become alive and more conscious than when you are at one of the poles of success or failure."

"I don't want to ask."

"When you are failing....you are relaxed that there is nothing that can be done. Your house has burned to the ground. You have been hit by a car. You have been wiped out financially. With success you are also comfortable. You are at a ceiling. You might want more. But there is no more swimming required in some cases. It builds on itself. But The C. The C requires attention. It requires you to stay focused. It is a little ways from success. It is a little ways from failure. It makes you not give up. It makes you present. You have to be, you still have life. You have a chance."

"What does that say?"

"I'm not sure. I have had an entire year of the middle. I've had an entire year of almost one direction or the other. Almost. So during that time I wait in the middle.I guess I have had an entire year of staying present. No room to let it ride. I had to stand conscious watch over my life. I highly recommend it."