" *: Lanvin doesn't need to feel.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Lanvin doesn't need to feel.






















"I want to be constant."

"Huh?"

"I want to be consistent. It can be upsetting."

"What is?"

"I have noticed, I can't help but notice how consistently inconsistent we all are."

"I told you I was going to be late."

"I'm not talking about that. Well maybe I am."

"Get it together."

"Look."

"OK. I'm sorry."

"We are just looking to feel. We are just so desperate to just feel something in the world."

"Feel what?"

"Feel temporary sensation. You want more but you don't know what that is so you settle for just a sensation. Just a hit."

"So I am a drug addict."

"You travel out of the country, buy new technology, cook unusual foods, start new relationships all to just feel. You are not looking for experiences that finds a state. You are not looking to stand still. Not looking to be seen. You have to keep moving around to satisfy your urges. This makes you consistently inconsistent when something of gravity is asked of you."

"I don't understand, but you make me sound like a drug addicted adolescent now."

"Yeah. Of course. You are always looking to satisfy a feeling even in every conversation. You want to know what you can get out of it that will lead to a sensation."

"That can't be true."

"It's true."

"It's not."

"You think I blame you? You think I am judging you?"

"I don't know."

"What if that feel that you are constantly looking for in new sex partners, new condo, new TV show; what if you told yourself that feeling will always be the same? It will always lead to a feeling of unfulfillment. Because it does doesn't it? You are never filled up once you get these things. You are out looking for the next thing. Consistently.That is what I have struggled with. I discovered that feeling doesn't need to be sought out anymore. I don't have to spend a night in Tunisia just for a feeling. I can go to experience myself. The feeling is with me. It is what I bring to situations when I finally stop moving and become constant."

"This is heavier than my breakfast."

"It's not. These biscuits are three days old."

"Maybe."

"They are constantly bad in here."

"Yeah."




























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